I always knew this day would come, but I never expected it to come so fast.
Matthew and I are pretty close, not only dating-wise, but also in friendship. He's so dear to my heart and today I had to watch that piece of my heart walk away, through security and onto a plane that would take him to the Provo Missionary Training Center. Yep, that's right. Matthew's gone for 2 WHOLE YEARS to serve the Lord.
I am so proud of him for making this choice to serve, but it's also the hardest thing I have ever gone through. As the date of his departure got closer and closer, I began to get really emotional about it.
I wasn't sleeping, eating, being happy, or being myself! All I could think about was that my boyfriend who I hang out with all the time is leaving for 2 years.
It's literally
the most bittersweet feeling I have ever had.
Matthew and I go way back! (about 5-6 years approx.)
About 8-9 years ago, our wards combined due to a lack of members in each ward. In an effort to increase numbers in the ward, it was decided that "Lehi 3rd ward" and "Lehi 7th ward" would combine to make "Hillside ward".
Matthew and I didn't even know each other existed at the beginning of this combining... but that soon changed once we turned 13 and started going to the "Youth Sunday School" class.
I was sitting in my chair next to some of the girls in my ward and I reached down to grab my bag when I realized I had forgot to pack gum (which is a total shocker for me). In a moment of desperation, I called out, "Does anyone have some gum I could have?" But no one responded and I just forgot about it.
Then a few minutes later, this little native boy (who I had never met or noticed in class before) leaned over with a piece of mint-flavored "React 5" gum. I took it without hesitation and thanked him. As the class went on, I began to think why I had never seen him before and why I didn't talk to him longer.
Soon the class ended and I was on my way to my "Young Women's" class and kind of forgot all about it. But then the next week at church, I made a special effort to sit by "this boy".
I wasn't sure what he thought of me, but in my little 13 year old heart, I began to like him. ;)
-I HAD TO MEET THIS BOY AND FIND OUT IF HE LIKED ME BACK.-
So after driving myself absolutely nuts about "this boy", I finally reached out to his sister to ask her about him. Her and I exchanged e-mails and soon were chatting on Gmail chat (so professional and cool, right?)
Anyways, so I asked her if I could chat with her brother. She said yes and went to get him.
I waited and waited then saw the "typing" prompt on my chat screen.
"IT WAS HIM!" I had so many butterflies going crazy in my stomach.
I can't remember his exact words, and i'm kicking myself because I accidentally deleted the chat since then, but basically we talked for a while until I got the courage up to ask him if he liked me.
Boy, was I sweatin' bullets!
He began typing again and replied with a, "yes".
I was on CLOUD 9!
I laugh so hard when I look back on it now, but you know what, that is a great memory that him and I share. And look at us now. We still "like" each other, heehee!
Anyways, that's basically the story of M and I. Pretty cute and "13 year old style" right?
I love the story, though. I love that we both love it and can laugh about it now when we talk about it.
I miss that boy so much. I try not to say it too much to him, because I don't want to make being away from home harder for him.
This day has gone by so slow. And it's only the first day of him being gone! But, I am also so grateful and blessed to have the family I have and all of the friends I have who are cheering us on and supporting us through this time. I feel so lucky to have such amazing and inspiring people around me.
Two years will be so hard, but it will also be worth it and show the value we hold for one another.
I am so grateful that Matthew is able to do this and that him and I are both able to grow individually and become what God has in plan. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true and that Matthew is able to share it with the people of Argentina.
((Below are a few pics from the airport this morning.))
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| Yes, we hugged at the airport. We couldn't help it. |